Happy

Happy by Pharrel Williams
http://24hoursofhappy.com/

This song always manages me to dance,
or at the very least, boost my mood on doing anything
The lyric is great, the beat is even better!
I think whoever arranges the music is really smart.

Hearing this song reminds me that I have been more cheerful and happier than I was last year
Apparently, writing is a good treatment for me.
And not just writing, but to be more specific,
writing things make me happy or thankful.
It was pretty much difficult at start
since I was depressed and can not think anything else but
negative and sad thoughts.
I even had to force myself to find excuses or things that
actually not making me that happy and to write those things as happy things like seeing it as blessing in disguise
Looking back, happiness occurs everyday,
it is the matter of realizing and acknowledging it.

Now I believe the secret to be happy is to be content
and to be content is to realize there is always things to be grateful of.
even the smallest or simplest thing
such as sleeping or even breathing.

The Reason

I was surfing on internet to search for some research materials while streaming on one of national news channel. They were talking about what is happiness and what can we do to make ourselves still happy during stressful events.

One of the callers said his job was actually considered as a highly respected job, people acknowledged his achievements. However, sometimes he did not enjoy  his job anymore since he was often trapped in stressful condition because he could not reach his own expectation. People said he aimed to high. Yet, he thought that he has to aim high in order to make himself move forward. He asked what he should do? He also wanted to be content and happy with his job now, but he did not want to loose his target that has made him move forward until now?

The guest speaker answer really hit me.
He said the one thing you have to realize is what is your reason in doing your job?
in aiming high target?
what will you gain if you have your achievements?
will it make you happy?
will it make more people happy?
sometimes people are so busy in aiming high things without knowing
what is the meaning of reaching it.
when people forget about it, people will loose the meaning of his job
and eventually they might become not enjoying what they do anymore
thus feel unsatisfied, and of course
not happy with themselves

Being Single

Despite of not being successful in starting any relationship with men, in some occassion, actually,
I am quite sure that I will be single for the rest of my life.

It is not like I am too afraid of starting any new relationship
or to open my heart to a man.

I do not mind at all, if that is true.
In fact, I am pretty much sure it is God`s calling for me.
I am proud of it.
I can even say with confident in front of my family and friends
I do not have any plan or any desire to get married.
I do not feel ashamed although most of my friends with the same age
are planning to get or have already married and even have a child



Being single all of my life (excluding 2 days of having a status of somebody`s girlfriend, yep, 2 days, it was a monkey love, they said, so does not count), I realized,
I am more focused with my goals and responsibilities.
I can concentrate more on my relationship with family, friends
and, more importantly, God.
I can chase my dreams
I am happy
I can do whatever I want
I can be myself
I do not need any special man to enter my life and
to make me happy or satisfied

Based on my experience,every time I fall in love,
I will make that man as my priority, worstly, even God becomes second.
It was terrible.

The last experience taught me that.
Letting myself fall in love with someone will only drag me further
from everything I should be closer to.
I was more melancholy, which I am actually not.
Does not bring any benefit at all

I do not want that to happen again.
Ever.


The only thing that concerns me now is not the social/peer pressure
it is my parents.
It must be difficult having your child not married yet
not even involved in any relationship whatsoever
while their friends and families already have grandchildren
I feel like I have not made their happiness to be perfect yet

I have once or twice brought this matter
in front of them in a couple of occasion
They said they were not that worried
if until now I have not been in any special relationship
and am now concentrating on finishing my graduate course
but they seemed to be concerned
when I said I do not want to get married at all.
And sadly, I do not think I can not give that to them
I think that will be my failure
If only I can say to them, I will try to be anything that
you can be proud of
but not a wife of someone or mother to a child
They probably have to put their hope on my sisters
However, I can not say that, can`t I?


Thing that I can do for now
is praying to confirm this
I hope God can give me any confirmation
for this decision.
Eventhough that perfectly suitable man does not exist
thus will not come
I am OK with that
I have decided to follow whatever His decision
But the most important thing
I hope I do not misunderstand His answer
and what I believe in now is not merely me being stubborn
or having too much qualification or pride
Until then, I decide to enjoy my life as a single independent woman


And here`s a song that represents my thoughts about this topic