Cute toddlers

Recently I am so into watching two youtube channels.
They are just overload with cuteness. I do not get bored with the episodes although I watch them repeatedly.

1. Questions for Olor
https://www.youtube.com/channel/UC--YRb0X-fOVZ7FlExXtFnA
I started to watch (even subscribe) after I saw the parody of Shia`s just do it. Basically, in those videos, the little girl, Olor aka Laura, answers questions given by her father but recently the questions are also from people. The way she answers and her answers are so hilarious and cute. She is quite expressive.

2. Baby Yebin
https://www.youtube.com/channel/UChfeqAyKn2xEi_H0sQQEDAA
She becomes big after her video of being taught by her mom to avoid suspicious people gone viral. Her expressive and unexpected reactions are adorable.

Gosh! These channels make me want to have a daughter, I can`t deny XD

Romcom syndrome

I realized recently I have this romcom syndrome. I actually love this romantic comedy genre movies. I mean who doesn't love movies that not require you any deep thoughts and end in happy lovey dovey ending despite of the struggles the couples have? 

Regardless, I always have this uncomfortable feeling after watching these movies. I will slowly feel pathetic while comparing myself, who have been single for my entire life, with these stories and friends or colleagues who have married or in exclusive relationship.

These main girl characters, no matter how f up or overweight or insecure they are, will always some patient and cool dudes to save them in terms of loving them unconditionally. No matter how much these girls push them away, the guys would chase and fight for getting them back again. I have some sweet lovey dovey moments too, but they always ends up with me forcing my imagination to be true while actually most of them are all just one sided feeling. Either I was too young for any relationship, misunderstood completely the attention I receive, or the latest one, geographical barrier. In the end, I always fail in terms of relationship. I even think maybe I am not meant to have a soulmate. It's kind of ironic because back then I thought life's so good I do not even need any relationship. Heck, I can take care myself. I've been single for my whole live, I am not a failed person. I don't suffer or die because of being single. Why bother right?

When it sinks  perfectly i will feel lonely and be the unfortunate person in this world. I know it's ungrateful, right? I have people who love me unconditionally like my parents and family I have God who have literally died for me despite of me being a f up sinner. There are many people out there have to struggle to live day by day, fighting cancer, even have to survive war

I try to be positive about myself and concentrate on my achievements so far. Not everyone can actually be on where I am now. But, then, I will feel incomplete. I guess I am beginning to see a pattern here, these kind of movies triggers these pathetic thoughts. I don't blame romcom movies. I blame myself doing the same mistake. I am victimizing myself. I think I should never watch this genre, not until I am actually in a relationship. Or at least not until I get rid of my insecurity of being single.

Gosh, I think I need some detox now.

I think I should watch dexter later.

Same Sex Marriage (1): Love

At first, I chose to be a bit ignorant with the recent event of legalization of same sex marriage. I mean, it is not my problem. Not even happen in my country. I have to admit a part of me are happy and excited seeing the happy faces of the couples who have been struggling to make it happen. By the time it gained momentum, the internet exploded with opinions revolving about human rights and same sex marriage. Some of them bothers me. My mind argues for both sides. Since I can not stop it and it is kind of distracting, I decide to write them all.

Therefore, before you continue reading this, please bear these in mind, there is no intention to judge anyone as a person nor to offend people as a human being. If you find it it offensive, please do remember we might have different life standard, so you do not have to be offended with them because we might value things using different scale. I am trying as much as I can to be as open mind as I can be. There is possibility my opinion is absolutely wrong. My opinions are written after hearing one of U.S. and England radio, reading some international and national news article, and browsing christian websites both whom support and against same sex marriage. I did also read some websites advocate same sex marriage. I am Christian since I was a child, so if you find my opinions are old fashioned or you consider me conservative, I do not mind. I do believe every creation comes from God, including human being and so if you believe in principal that human race came from a random chance of the right mixture in the right measure at the right time, we are obviously on different side. I do not have any background in psychology nor theology so this writing is not intended to be any scientific reference or even reference to judge things, that is if you want to judge :D

To make it clear from the beginning, I myself am against the idea of same sex marriage. Nevertheless, I do not hate them as person. Disagree does not always mean hate. I think it makes sense if you give them legal rights to be recognized as a family especially when they decide to adopt a child but not in terms of a marriage. But then again, it comes back to what is your basic principle in your life. If you put God`s law in the centre, it is a black and white matter. If you put human`s law, which obviously has some flaws, then it will become all grey.

Marriage in the view of Christian only involves man and woman. God makes human body as it is to compliment each other. Marriage is not talking about legalized sex but more than that an institution of man and woman build on God`s love. And while, we are in this matter, we also hear people argue that as long as they love each other, what is wrong with same sex marriage then? Is not Jesus Christ promoting love towards each other? Now let us stop there and think first, which love are we talking about? Marriage should be based on God`s love. As you know, God`s love is not erotic, it is agape. It is easy to say if getting married is all about to have sex legally, then it is wrong. Getting married with someone does not mean you justify your lust over someone. Then, what if both same sex parties feel love so deep about each other. What if it is not about lust? What if they also believe in God but feel affection so deep towards each other? The question is, `is it feeling affection the same with love? Some people use this deep affection to justify their pedophile or incest act, does this mean love? Some people feel deep affection towards money, wealth or other things in this world, they will do anything to have them, does this really mean love? Feeling is not the same as love.In some case, we might be trapped with being unable to differ between lust and love.
Again, if we believe in God and claim everything we do is to please God, then, it will be obvious we have to understand what God considers right and what God considers wrong. As God words, we believe as Christians, written in The Bible, then it is obvious that God condemns same sex union. Strictly speaking, same sex union is a sin. Now, if we do believe in God and love Him, do not we want to obey Him including stop doing things He does not like, no matter how painful actually we feel. We have strong urge to do certain type of things we know it is sin, yet we have choice to surrender and consumed by it or to struggle even if it takes a lifetime struggle.

...to be continued

Calling

A couple of months ago, I struggled with calling. Apparently, after discussing with my friend, I found I have to redefine my understanding about "Calling". 

I used to think that having a calling means having predicted what will you reach at the end of the line. That it is sealed for the rest of your life. We want to think that way because we want to make sure everything is under our own control.

Most of the times, it is not the case. God might call you for one goal for a certain time but He might call you for other goal afterwards. 

Another thing is, sometimes we are to focused to our calling instead of The Caller himself. We are too busy achieving our goal we forget God might have different saying with what our doing. I have to admit I also made the same mistake.

The most important thing is how we start or how we end, it is at the very moment whether we remain faithful to Him regardless our best or lowest point. 

Having a calling doesn't have to be working in the same area you have passion about. The scoop of calling is sometimes larger than your job. You can still do your job but you can serve on the other area outside your job whigh you also have passion on your spare time. 

Another point is about the different definition of work and job. In christianity, working means we become blessings for others but also we fullfil our need and passion, all directed to glorify God. These are inseparable aspects of work. Having a job, on the other hand, speaks more with having things to do so you can have some income, not necessarily something you have passion about.

Isaiah 40:21-31= Bigger picture

Today, the passage reminds me of God` s power and sovereignty.
As human with limited view and ability, we are unable to see the bigger picture God sees.
That is why we will never understand wholy what God has planned for us or even for the world.
What can we do, however, as one of His creations to do what we can and work with whatever God has given to us. We might complain when we don`t really get why God wants us to be in some place or work on the same thing over and over again or simply why we live; but have faith that our lives have been planned by God and we have to do what we have to do, our works will never be in vain when we do it in God.

Calling

This morning, I watch short ad about Oprah's talk show of Super Soul Sunday and they were talking about " calling".
It hit me right on, especially after last night, being asked by my friend about what's your plan for the next 5 years? One thing for sure, I do not have any plan of having something expensive like cars or bags like my friend suggested.
Here are things have been bothering me since;
We live with more than one callings; these callings sometimes can change as time flies by.
Some callings might end on some time. And we might have new callings down the way.
Some callings might be called away from us.
I was like....oookkkaaayyyy... now I am a bit confused.

Ephesians 2:10-22: Handiwork

We are God's handiwork,
we are prepared for doing His work.
Our lives are not lived for nothing.
They are for a purpose.
His purpose.

What is His purpose?
to create peace.
Peace can only be created by uniting different groups.
Beautifully, through Jesus Christs, there is no difference between those who have received the promises first, the Israelites and those considered as foreigners.
Therefore, Paul stated, to do good works set by God without worrying about those differences.
Everyone united in church should work together regardless their backgrounds.
What matters the most is everything built upon one foundation, Jesus Christ